Two months
It has been a rough two months, Got treated for a ms attackin may lasted nearly 2 months. Back on track now just to be treated for a stomach bacteria. Was it from the drugs I had taken along the years.
Funny how no one can answer that for me. Also I realized tha
that 5 months ago I had to be like 3 or 4 months not taking
any steriods , now I am told once i clear up the stomach
problem I can take it. So who do I listen to I know , myself.
Sorry doc I want to be left alone as least I know that I will have the answer to my questions .
Results
This time it is taking longer .I feel no change, it is dis
appointing because i thought the symptoyms
would have disappeared. Well called the nurse to give
her the updates now to wait. Yes now I am lying in
bed trying to rest.
It is finally over.
Now to get the rest i really need besides working on my
vegetable garden which relaxes me I enjoy the sun and
the smell of my vegetables plants i purchased with my b
eautiful purple pansies
End of Treatement
Today the final dose. Do i see improvement no. The drug is powerful for sure . It has been 26 hrs that i have not slept. I really have to rest if i want this intruder to leave again.
To Feel Again
Well the number 3 infusion is done 2 more left. I am handling it well. But what choice did I have I wanted to get over the symptyoms. I want to be able to spoil my grandson born on april 29. To really have the feeling in my arms and hands to hold him and when I kiss him not feel the numbness around my mouth and lips.
Feelings
This week what they thought was vertigo, now I knew the truth but another M.S. ATTACK. How do I know well the numbess was enough for me to know where the dizziness came from. This weather does not help. Raining for a week makes the symptoms unbearable. I like to pretend that this one will not stop me from doing my normal activities but when you feel like a zombie , it means to chill take it easy and |I am really trying to but I am also trying to fight it. Tomorrow I will go see my neuro to get evaluated again. Hope it will go well. Just a few days of rest will do me good.
Why Be Alone
Why when there is always someone who cares. Why push them away when you know that you are wrong but they care enough to stand by you. We all make mistakes but we try to reason with our conscience.Trying to be spiteful does not make it right.The only person you hurt is yourself. Someday, you will look back and realize if it was worth it. What is your priority in life. Do you really know it or care to find it.
Another Precious Angel is Born
A sweet precious little baby is born. His name is Adrian Gabriel born on the 29 th of April 2011 at 3:13 p.m. We were all excited that he finally arrived among us. He will be loved and spoiled from all of us. The name Adrian means master of the world. May God watch over him and his big brother Daniel Joseph. Middle names of the Saints like Saint Joseph protector of the family and Saint Gabriel protector of children.
Vision
Who Am I
My name is Giovanna, I am 55 years old. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 1989. In May 24, it will be 21 years that I live with it.
The way I lived with it so long I learned to listen to my body. When I am tired I know that it is time to rest. Even though I do not want to. I enjoy walking outside . When the weather is beautiful on with the running shoes and on my way for a nice long walk. It seems to make me relax. Along the years I noticed what triggers the attacks. soaking in a hot bath is a nono why because it takes my energy away. Luke warm showers are the best solution for me. Eating healthy does wonders but do not get me wrong Spaghetti with meat sauce is my favorite dish. No I will not eat fish like I am told but Once a month I c an handle it. At the beginning I did all the groups I saw the worst cases of MS, but I did not want that life. As if anyone has a choice, but I found that I as going to fight it not make it get me. Any one who sees me does not believe that I have MS. It is very bizarre it plays alot with our emotions. I can laugh for no reason at all. Then I would cry for no reason at all. I do not feel bad to speak about it. It is part of my life I can live with it .
What is the meaning of a Friend
A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.
Spirit of Life
What is a day living with this spirit. I wake up knowing that it will be a good day with susnshine even though it is cloudy. A hot shower and a fresh cup of dripped coffee, does the trick to wake up for sure. All the aches I had disappears, but the time I get in my little mini van I am ready to confront the day. Get a cd of my favorite music and keeping my eyes on the road I am singing along off to work I go. When I start my day after logging to the 3 computers I am ready to start the day. Why 3 computer well working with the specials needs I need my quebec side, my ontario side and the main one the TTY computer. Since i started at Bell Canada my dreams was to work with that team. It gave me relief knowing I would be able to help other people with worst health issues. Mine did not seem bad. People that are deaf and mute really have it bad. I thought that my health issues was not as bad as what i work with day in and out.
Intruder
Who are you? What did you need from me that bother you enough to change my life.Well the question I asked myself every day for the last 22 years of my life. Why me? I guess after all these years I said the guy upstairs wanted me to show everyone around me that when the times were rough that it was not hard to deal with you.
Well I did deal with you and I would not let you deprive me to live the life I was meant to live . On occasions you let yourself be seen, sometimes no one would notice and a few that was enough to torment my family? Well my dear friend you are my shadow, but I have made you not my enemy but my spirit of living with you.
For those who have followed me through good and bad times ,thank you for loving me and caring. I love you with all my heart .
I know who you are, MS,do you know who I am.
What Is Important Today and Everyday
The importance of family is the biggest joy anyone can have. Sometimes when the times are bad, I think of my family and what troubles me disappears . I look at the pictures on my desk , and remember when they were taken.We did have a new addition to the Family which changed our lives forever and a new arrival will be among us soon. Daniel is the bundle of joy that makes us more soft being a grandmother made me more soft .
Good Old Times
Funny thing today talking about a time that I had cherished. My co- workers did not believe it. I was raising my children and babysitting my friends children while they went to work. With the money I got my first dishwasher, the good old 1980`s. Who thought that in the year 2009,I would be working with the special needs team at Bell Canada.
